“I think one of the most universal human experiences is feeling alone. You’d never know it, but there’s most likely tons of people feeling the exact same way. Maybe because you’re feeling abandoned. Maybe because you realize that you aren’t as self-sufficient as you thought. Maybe because you know you should’ve handled something differently. Or maybe because you aren’t as good as you thought you were.”—Scrubs (via pav-acid, catchmyfall)
“Tuesday morning, he called me to ask me to hurry up to Palo Alto. His tone was affectionate, dear, loving, but like someone whose luggage was already strapped onto the vehicle, who was already on the beginning of his journey, even as he was sorry, truly deeply sorry, to be leaving us.
He started his farewell and I stopped him. I said, “Wait. I’m coming. I’m in a taxi to the airport. I’ll be there.”
“I’m telling you now because I’m afraid you won’t make it on time, honey.”
When I arrived, he and his Laurene were joking together like partners who’d lived and worked together every day of their lives. He looked into his children’s eyes as if he couldn’t unlock his gaze.
Until about 2 in the afternoon, his wife could rouse him, to talk to his friends from Apple.
Then, after awhile, it was clear that he would no longer wake to us.
His breathing changed. It became severe, deliberate, purposeful. I could feel him counting his steps again, pushing farther than before.
This is what I learned: he was working at this, too. Death didn’t happen to Steve, he achieved it.
He told me, when he was saying goodbye and telling me he was sorry, so sorry we wouldn’t be able to be old together as we’d always planned, that he was going to a better place.
Dr. Fischer gave him a 50/50 chance of making it through the night.
He made it through the night, Laurene next to him on the bed sometimes jerked up when there was a longer pause between his breaths. She and I looked at each other, then he would heave a deep breath and begin again.
This had to be done. Even now, he had a stern, still handsome profile, the profile of an absolutist, a romantic. His breath indicated an arduous journey, some steep path, altitude.
He seemed to be climbing.
But with that will, that work ethic, that strength, there was also sweet Steve’s capacity for wonderment, the artist’s belief in the ideal, the still more beautiful later.
Steve’s final words, hours earlier, were monosyllables, repeated three times.
Before embarking, he’d looked at his sister Patty, then for a long time at his children, then at his life’s partner, Laurene, and then over their shoulders past them.
Advertising has obviously had a huge influence on art and the direction of our national taste and increasingly so in the last 20 years. Do you think it has been a source for good, and the furthering of art as funded by the corporate need to sell more widgets or do you think it has done harm by muddying the waters of expression with sales numbers?
In reference to how America as a country is being directed by advertising in relation to Art I would have to go with my gut and say Advertising is where most true creative minds come to die (especially pharma). I have seen too many brilliant creative minds be ruined by Media, Project Mgmt, bad partnerships and just terrible constraints that eliminates all right brain function.
I love & believe in advertising, but it rarely becomes art. I always have to remember I get paid for my job, and the Ads I buy or place are done so with green backs. Art will be left for the weekends.
That said there is a RARE instance where art and creativity overtake media, advertising, sales, publishing & just says go screw your self to the all mighty sales number.
A great example of that is Ads from Equinox “Life” (social), the BMW ALMS ads, the new all state viral neighborhood apps, takethislollipop.com, PUMA circa 2009 in Europe, Huge Boss Red Label, Double Black by JW, Rapha cycling, & Team Leopard 2011 (not trek). I have much more, but those have been on my mind in terms of pushing the true creative spirit.
In the end a true artist starves, but I NEED and want the brilliant creatives to compromise a little to make some great creative for me to place as a buyer. Advertising and Art is a delicate balance that you must push the limits to succeed and fail at in order to achieve the pinnacle of Media excellence.
I see an abundance of people go to the ask page…but only have had a dozen Q’s….
Now is the time feel free to ask anything? Mean, nice, douchey or just plain awful..Bring it. A nice one would be greatly appreciated thou, especially from all my global visitors (UK, Aussie, Europe and India)
I will start it off to address a few Q’s that I never had time to before:
What are you doing for Halloween?
Dressing as Indian Hemingway and then Tim Tebow while terrorizing the LES, NYC
Life Long Dream?
Become a CMO at BBDO & amass all the respect on Madison Ave. Then at 42 move to Port Grimuad, France and/or Capri, Italy to open a Bike rental shop with primo espresso